I get asked many times during the week if I am PSE or GFE or both. Now, from what I have read about this alphabet soup, I really can’t answer. I won’t commit to a set of acts based on the 15 different definitions for both of these acronyms. How confusing are some of these weird things anyway! I am not a robot and there is no guarantees in life. I know it may be hard to grasp but every time I meet someone, that session, appointment, or date is catered around that person, their behavior, where we are, if they smell bad, factors man, there are many factors! Who is to say exactly what may happen between 2 adults that happen to really like each other? or the stinky bad breathed guy who is grabby and irritating? Do you get my meaning?

I look at each experience as something to remember and make memorable. Its not routine and if there is a script for each session, I would get dreadfully bored and then I may grow some tin skin, being robo-barbie. Bleh, who wants that?!? Maybe some do, but not the clients that I want to see.

Ok, let’s look at some fact here before we all go mad(or at least me):

I am a porn star
I have been in actual porn films
I am a Midwesterner
I am a bit shy at first and warm up quickly
I have an old soul and appreciate gentleman
I don’t dress “the part” (not saying that other PSE’s do, just been asked for the super short skirt)
I love fine wines
I love to try new restaurants
I am quite affectionate
Dinner dates are my favorite types of dates

Hmmm…Seems like I would be a PSE since I am in films but it has been described to me like you hit the door, that the gal shoves her tongue down your throat. EWW!, I more of a let’s chat and get to know each other for a few minutes. I like the romance, the candles, the soft lights, the giggles, the passion. Hmmm maybe I am a GFE.

I won’t give you the nitty gritty details of what I have read these definitions mean. Its a bit gross and both have unsafe activities listed that I am not in any way interested in. I don’t care what you see on TV or what listed on your favorite message board(rolls eyes), I won’t compromise my health(or yours) for your excitement, and its not ok to ask me to.

Well, what can you expect? You can expect to meet a charming Midwestern gal with a sweet, warm, playful personality that wants to have a fantastic tie with you. If you need the ABC’s, then you need to look somewhere else. Where? I have no idea, maybe one of those that have the acts listed. Maybe there will be no screening, boon for you, but then you may be arrested too. Cops write reviews, isn’t that cool?

To close, I say you can’t label me, I am just me. I am the Sarah Blake Experience- SBE!

So, I write this in jest, to make you smile, not take life so seriously with a bit of dry humor that may appear as a gripe but tongue in cheek the whole time. I giggles a bit, wrinkled my nose a few times and in the end, as I took another sip of my favorite wine, smiled

I keep seeing this and I have to laugh. Its so cute and reminds me of a series called the Million Dollar Man and there is another one with a woman but I can’t remember the name of it. I’m not a robot but I am a lover of Sci-Fi so it tickled my fancy.

After many posts speculating why, complaining, whining, bitching, and boobie hate mail(LOL) because of the choices I made, I just have one thing to say: FUCK OFF! You sound like a bunch of old biddies!

I turn 28 this coming week, yes 28. That’s right, I’m on the better part of almost 30 now. I’m not 18 and I don’t really give a rat’s ass what people think. I’m me, feisty, daring, shoots from the hip, and doesn’t take any shit…so look out.

I got an email a few weeks ago from someone just plain being an ass. I get these daily, even before I changed my look, but I just let the guy have it. He replied back that I wasn’t the nice person I claimed to be. Well, I never claimed to be nice or a doormat either. I’m not required be pleasant after a sorry attempt to insult me. I don’t understand why people think you have to be nice to them after they act like complete jerks.

So, I didn’t change my look for money, for someone else, to prove anything, or to try to look like everyone else. The hair is an experiment and its fun to change, morph into and change back at a whim, which I will do whenever I feel like it. I wrote a blog all about why I changes but I guess the board whores don’t understand how to read anything but the tattoos on the small of backs. If they really wanted to know, they could read my diary. That would just take considerably too much effort and its much more fun to make things up and speak of the downfall I am possibly taking. Some people have way too much time on their hands.

I missed blogging and thought this was interesting and amusing. I had to share! Did you miss it?

So my mom received an email today. Yes, my mom did, not me. It explained that her daughter(me) was an escort and even had a link not only to my escort website but to my paysite as well! Oh the drama!

Her response: “No shit Sherlock!”

I thought this response was priceless. When she told me about it, I started laughing but then I stopped and thought about how lucky I am. I don’t have to lie to my family or hide what I do. They know I’m a freak, escort, pornstar, whore, or whatever. They still love me anyway. I’m extremely fortunate to have people in my life that love me without conditions. t doesn’t mean I don’t value the decreet nature of this business. I see their lives outside out little bubbles of fun as none of my business anyway. I don’t have time for all of that mess. I just want to have a great time too, then go home, hug my dogs, watch CSI or Dexter, then drift off to sleep.

I then thought about the escorts I know that were outed and it was a very bad thing for them. I feel awful for them and would never wish “being outed” on anyone, no matter how catty I felt toward them. When it happens, I’m a bit pissy about the lack of respect they are being shown after countless encounters and keeping their own mouths shut.

What is “Being Outed”

It means that some lamer decided to reveal to friends, family, work, or whoever a person was trying to keep being in the industry “quiet” that they are in fact, in the adult industry. The secrets out, cats out of the bag, and sometimes it ruins lives.

So, I have to say in closing to this blog entry to the lamer that tried to out me. I’ve been out for quite some time, like the very beginning, lol!

What is it like to be a porn star? Or maybe I should say adult entertainer since I don’t just work on film. I delved into many different factions of the business.

I get asked this a lot and I have to laugh at myself. I forget that its not normal to pose naked to have sex on camera. Its been my world for the last 5 or 6 years so its become a part of my life that is well, normal.

I have always been a hamb and wanted everyone to take my picture. The whole reason I got into the adult industry was to see myself in print. I wanted my picture taken. Well, I got my wish:)

Here’s some different things I have to consider that many other people may not:

1. Personal grooming takes on a whole new meaning, and takes up a lot of my time.
2. I watch what I eat before a scene so I don’t have to burp or have garlic breath. No amount of breath mints will help you if you have some onions or garlic.
3. I don’t each much before shooting so I’m not bloated, puffy, and tired. Since I love food I have to eat light before then pig out after,lol
3. I can’t brush my teeth before a scene due to micro tears in my mouth and that can increase my risk of getting an STD.
4. I have a favorite brand of condom, and a back-up brand that is non-latex for working with those who are allergic.
5. Since I work naked most of the time, I have to try not to be a klutz so I don’t get bumps and bruises.
6. I have an entire wardrobe that I will never wear outside of shooting. Its like another person lives with me. I have way more panties than anyone should have. I swear, there are bins of them in my closet.

Some people seem to think porn stars are some kind of sad alien, incapable of relationships, poor abused souls that are leading a life of debauchery. I know a large number of women in my industry and most are either married or have someone in their lives. Some choose not to for personal reasons or like me, don’t have time or patience,lol. Most of us are very loved by family and friends. We aren’t aliens. We are just like you(gasp!)

Its an odd job that is not socially acceptable but I think I like that too. I don’t need to fit in or be in the little clicks to survive. Even though I’m a Leo, I really enjoy being anti-social.

Being a pornstar is a lot like any job in entertainment, except that I work naked, and I love it. Not many people can say they love what they do. I can. I’m one of the lucky ones.

Its also a job where some people judge you on a daily basis, your body, your choices, your hair color, any changes you make in your life, career, or personal life, people have a comment for you. To be an adult entertainer you have to develop a very think skin. You have to not care what people think most of the time. Some people are going to be negative toward you no matter how much you try to please. This job is not about pleasing everyone, and if you get into that trap, you will get sucked down and ground up. I do what I want, when I want and I don’t care what “they” think. If I cared what everyone thought about my choices, I’d still be in Indiana, probably have a bunch of rugrats, and unhappily married. bleh.

And then some people will try to “save” you from yout awful choice to be a pornstar. This one really makes me wonder-do they wake up and say,”I’m going to save that poor, poor girl from that world” before or after they jerk off to the video or website they found her on? Sorry, I’m a little cynical and hypocrites bother me.

All in all, its a great life. I can take care of my family, work when I want to, with who I want to. Sure, there are negative aspects but most of them don’t even come close to me. I made it that way, because I am my own boss and don’t get involved with all the negative crap.

Do I feel bad because hundreds of people know what I look like naked? No what’s to feel bad about? I really don’t think about it, but when I do, its pretty cool to me. Its work. I do my job, I have fun, I get paid, I go home to live my life like anyone else.

If you really want to know what goes on day to day in my life as a porn star and what it was like for me in the beginning, see my paysite. There is a blog that dates back to 2003.

I decided to post a daily pic because:

1. I want to show off my photography
2. I have a ton of work to do and can’t blog as much
3. Pics are great and everyone enjoys them
4. you’ll come back tomorrow to see the next one right? I thought so, hehehe…

Don’t worry, these will all end up in the portfolio for your viewing pleasure too!

As you can see I have changed the look of this website and it now closely resembles my paysite. I was tired of all the black and I couldn’t do some of the things I wanted to with the blog. I couldn’t submit it to directories or network with other blogs since I didn’t have a darn sidebar. The old theme didn’t allow for it so I figured it was time for yet another overhaul. I think it has a lighter feel to it. Its happier-like me!

I will change the header over to some newer pics and will be adding pics to the gallery either this weekend or early this week. I shot some great pics in Dallas. Here’s one that I really love:

I’m also shooting a ton of naughty content for my paysite next week. I’ll post a few pics here and maybe some teaser videos too:)