What is it like to be a porn star? Or maybe I should say adult entertainer since I don’t just work on film. I delved into many different factions of the business.
I get asked this a lot and I have to laugh at myself. I forget that its not normal to pose naked to have sex on camera. Its been my world for the last 5 or 6 years so its become a part of my life that is well, normal.
I have always been a hamb and wanted everyone to take my picture. The whole reason I got into the adult industry was to see myself in print. I wanted my picture taken. Well, I got my wish:)
Here’s some different things I have to consider that many other people may not:
1. Personal grooming takes on a whole new meaning, and takes up a lot of my time.
2. I watch what I eat before a scene so I don’t have to burp or have garlic breath. No amount of breath mints will help you if you have some onions or garlic.
3. I don’t each much before shooting so I’m not bloated, puffy, and tired. Since I love food I have to eat light before then pig out after,lol
3. I can’t brush my teeth before a scene due to micro tears in my mouth and that can increase my risk of getting an STD.
4. I have a favorite brand of condom, and a back-up brand that is non-latex for working with those who are allergic.
5. Since I work naked most of the time, I have to try not to be a klutz so I don’t get bumps and bruises.
6. I have an entire wardrobe that I will never wear outside of shooting. Its like another person lives with me. I have way more panties than anyone should have. I swear, there are bins of them in my closet.
Some people seem to think porn stars are some kind of sad alien, incapable of relationships, poor abused souls that are leading a life of debauchery. I know a large number of women in my industry and most are either married or have someone in their lives. Some choose not to for personal reasons or like me, don’t have time or patience,lol. Most of us are very loved by family and friends. We aren’t aliens. We are just like you(gasp!)
Its an odd job that is not socially acceptable but I think I like that too. I don’t need to fit in or be in the little clicks to survive. Even though I’m a Leo, I really enjoy being anti-social.
Being a pornstar is a lot like any job in entertainment, except that I work naked, and I love it. Not many people can say they love what they do. I can. I’m one of the lucky ones.
Its also a job where some people judge you on a daily basis, your body, your choices, your hair color, any changes you make in your life, career, or personal life, people have a comment for you. To be an adult entertainer you have to develop a very think skin. You have to not care what people think most of the time. Some people are going to be negative toward you no matter how much you try to please. This job is not about pleasing everyone, and if you get into that trap, you will get sucked down and ground up. I do what I want, when I want and I don’t care what “they” think. If I cared what everyone thought about my choices, I’d still be in Indiana, probably have a bunch of rugrats, and unhappily married. bleh.
And then some people will try to “save” you from yout awful choice to be a pornstar. This one really makes me wonder-do they wake up and say,”I’m going to save that poor, poor girl from that world” before or after they jerk off to the video or website they found her on? Sorry, I’m a little cynical and hypocrites bother me.
All in all, its a great life. I can take care of my family, work when I want to, with who I want to. Sure, there are negative aspects but most of them don’t even come close to me. I made it that way, because I am my own boss and don’t get involved with all the negative crap.
Do I feel bad because hundreds of people know what I look like naked? No what’s to feel bad about? I really don’t think about it, but when I do, its pretty cool to me. Its work. I do my job, I have fun, I get paid, I go home to live my life like anyone else.
If you really want to know what goes on day to day in my life as a porn star and what it was like for me in the beginning, see my paysite. There is a blog that dates back to 2003.