Watch the whole unedited video here, with all the naughty nudity:)

Since I have so many ideas and not enough time to do them all, i write many things down. I keep notebooks in my purse, in the car, by my bed, and on my desk. I never know when I’m going to be inspired by a new ides for a shoot, e-book, blog entry, movie, ect. Today I went through my scribbles and found so many ideas that I had written a few years ago that I can now integrate into my current projects and marketing plans.

I had planned to stay around Las Vegas for awhile but I got bit by the travel bug once again so I’ll be traveling a lot in December. I’m looking forward to traveling because I will be traveling with Inara We plan to do some photoshoots and film a new project for Studio Erotica called,”The building of Chelsea” We are collaborating on this projects and plan to submit it to film festivals. There are so many possibilities with this project, its going to be interesting to see how our 2 creative minds put this together.

I’m almost ready for the AVN convention in January. The booth is almost ready with graphics and I’m having several things printed up with my new logo on them. They guy who designed it did such a great job and it was exactly what I wanted. Its great when people just do what you ask them to do. Its refreshing. Along with debuting my company, I should also have my paysite designed and launched by AVN.

Now that I have your attention,hehe…I made Turkey and all the fixin’s on Thanksgiving and knew that Inara had just returned from her trip to LA. I had to bring her some turkey, Midwest noodles, and mashed potatoes(lactose free with 1/8 cauliflower). While I was there I indulged in some fine wine she had opened and we did the whole girly silly slumber party. We laughed and laughed, telling each other funny stories of holidays past, about our childhoods and more. It was great! Well, I had indulged more than I should with the wine so I couldn’t drive home(even though I’m only 3 miles away) She doesn’t move or snore or anything! She even let me borrow a very comfy and sexy nighty to sleep in:)

The next day I woke up early and thought, “What am I doing awake at this hour?” I hadn’t been awake before 9am for quite some time. Inara woke up shortly after and so did her kitty(the cat silly). We we went to get some coffee and headed off to go see if the discount MAC was a myth. I was not very amused by the whole MAC thing but I was interested nonetheless. Without the coffee, I wouldn’t have made it. I was determined to pour it on anyone that decided to get crazy on this “Black Friday” I now know why its called black Friday. You can’t see anything for all the people! Seriously though, it puts all the stores back in the black. Its a huge day and if you work retail(not fond memories of mine) then you are working that day. The discount MAC was a myth, oh well…then she took me to the MAC store over in a new shopping center that had just opened. It is so new that half the stores aren’t even open yet.

I went to the darkside…they have cookies. Inara bought me an Ipod as an early Christmas gift. I had been him-hawing around and deciding if I really wanted one or not. She got me the very pretty limited edition teal one. its so little! I hate to say it, but for all my bitching and moaning, I am in love with the little thing. I spent the better part of 2 hours trying to remember the songs and artists I liked. From Aerosmith to Bach, to Crazy Frog(don’t ask) and then onto the podcasts(I gotta start doing my own podcast) my Ipod is slowly filling up. I even bought myself one of those Ipod home radio units for my bathroom. Now I can jam to what I want instead of listening to that dreaded radio. I swear there is nothing on the radio in Las Vegas! For such a party town, you’d think there would be a better selection.

We went to a few other places before returning to her place. We were having so much fun that I hated to part with her. its so great to have a friend again that lives close enough to do girl stuff with. I’m so lucky to have Inara as my best friend. Now I have to figure out what to get her for Christmas. My family is doing gag gifts this year meaning at least 1 of us will most likely get toilet paper wrapped nicely and topped with a bow. I think I know what to get my best friend but its not for sure yet.

Ed is great to work with. He’s easy going, loves women, and loves their feet. I shot with him a couple times and I’m always pleased with the results as well as having a fantastic time during the process. Here’s a trailer of one of the videos he did with lil ‘ol me in it.

There is a sadistic side to every relationship. Someone is always emotionally smacked around. Is a sadistic element a necessity? Is it a need? A want? Is it jarring seeing the younger counterpart physically hit her older partner? Can it represent the love between the individuals involved?
Directed & Produced by Dan Dubelman for Studio Erotica.

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I quit smoking over a year ago, maybe longer. I don’t like to think about it. I have been seeing some difficult commercials lately and now I’m at the point where cigarette smoke smells awful to me. Before, it smelled kind of sweet. Its hard to describe, but I was addicted so my perception was off. Now, I hate it. I can breath and my endurance is great. I can exercise for long periods of time without laying on the ground and panting. I saw this website while stumbling around the internet and it made me even happier:)

http://www.quitsmokingcounter.com/

I guess you would expect that I would have run out, bought some whored up costume and them got silly drunk with random people in Las Vegas, never to remember the sloppy drunk kisses, or that I may have had to pee on the sidewalk somewhere on the way to be driven home by someone who wasn’t the designated driver. No, this year I stayed in, I learned a massive amount of information, cooked chili, ate it(yes, I can cook), and then worked on my computer networking, Dreamweaver, CSS tutorials, replied to fanmail through email and through that dreaded myspace.com that my pull me in yet with its evil ways.

Earlier in the day I smacked someone, literally. Oh, don’t be scared, it was for the FLAME project and he liked it too much for it to be a bad thing. I really enjoyed the burning look in his eyes when I caught him off guard. Smacking someone’s face can bring up some knarly emotions and it did just that. In my own sadistic way, it scared but enthralled me:) It made me yearn for my sensual domination clients and the punishments I have them endure. They love it, I love it, and everyone goes home with a sneaky sexy grin on their face.

I also posted a silly Halloween video that I made out in my backyard, clad in one of my favorite bikinis that I embedded from youtube.com I laugh at myself a lot. I got an email recently that asked why I even posted videos without make-up and not all pristine. Well, I’m not all pristine and never claimed to be. I’m just a simple gal from the Midwest who who refused to live there/die there. I rebelled, and succeeded to piss off many of the people I grew up around. But they don’t need to worry about saving my soul. My soul shines in its happiness:) The glee of sexual freedom!